Well today's the day that I've decided to look into a daycare for our 3 yr old son Gabriel.It is really tearing me up to have to do that .My husband suggested that maybe I should get a nanny or a house keeper but I know that Gabriel really needs to be with his own peers.He tries so very hard to play around with his older siblings but you know how that goes...they'd rather him not play with them.and I guess it's a reminder for me on how old I am.I'm only 30 but I don't feel it at all.I even look at our two youngest,Elizabeth and Sarah and wonder wher the time went.Sarah is 4 months old and Elizabeth is almost 2.why am I wrestling so much with this? I have no idea hopefully we'll come to some sort of solution.